I wanted to be a developer, and create the kind of games that I wanted to play. Now, I just want to survive.
I feel that there is some world that others were brought into, that I was left too long to believe that I am a part of it, and I suffered a lot, trying to have the normalcy that others take for granted.
This is not my world, I don’t belong in it. My goal is to become independent enough to not have to worry about other humans exploiting me at all, or die trying.
Ok, some downvotes are expected, but like 30 out of nowhere is a clear sign of a bot account. How petty and self-righteous can you be?
EDIT: Also, no one gets to view the original comment, or get to see the argument now. You don’t deserve it, nor will I ever be honest again.
I was not an adult, and rather troubled. I coped in very poor ways.
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I used to behave this way, but people took me seriously every time. Like saying Veterans should die off, because they are no longer of use (as criticism to our way of seeing humans as expendable) and I became very hated for this.
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Their very graves will be despoiled. There won’t be a single rock left unturned, not a single shred of mercy is left.
At this point, I don’t even have a choice. I explicitly limited myself to not making new friends, no dating, no sex, and very limited interaction outside of a certain framework. Not only can I not trust myself with humor and reasoning, but humans have also become way too predatory for my taste as of late, so I want to limit my interaction with them in general (I’m working towards having my own food, water, repairing my own stuff, it’s all planned).
I deleted PayPal after it’s privacy issue, and I have local LLM’s on my devices. I am also not buying new devices anymore (Have a 2013 Laptop, a new phone and tablet).
It’s a mixture of humans don’t deserve me, and I don’t (and can’t) deserve humans. It’s also a final decision, I had way too many negative experiences throughout the years, including getting screwed out of medical assistance that I legally have a right to, and being used. So, I am 100% done, we are simply incompatible.